New Me

after read my friends' blog, I always interest to write my own too.. ( read : labil )

hm,, theme of this blog : New life, new me..

it's like curcol i think..

I write this bcos it's my current problem. Yeah, it's common problem for teen like me ( am i teen??!! ) about 2 months ago, i'm just break up..

At the first 2 weeks of my 'new' status, i always galau every night. melow.. melooww.. melooooww..

Honestly, I didn't know the real reason why he choose this way.

And I thought, it's really hard for me to face it all. Almost every day I be with him, but for the next day next week next months next year, I will do anything withoum him.

hm... but, the life must goes on, right?!

Try to forget, it's the worst way. just let the time flies.. and I'm sure, the best medicine is TIME.

At he beginning of my relationship, dad said : " Don't love too much and give all of ur heart, ntar bisa sakit hati! " And now, It's trully happen. I think, I love him too much,bcos he's the first to me. and I'm trully heartache.

I know that all of this probles is God's plan. I don't know why, but there's so many gifts I get after i loose the i love. I feels like iI just out from the jail. Now, I can do anything that i can't do before. sooo many things. I can see everyone that I really missed. And I also learn many things. I try to be independent. And I know, God knows the best for me.

Now, I know the truth. the real reason. I can't imagine if it happen to me when have get married. It must be more more more more more suram!!! I never regret,although it really hurt me. I must give thanks, because give me chance to feel it. To love and to hurt.

Thanks to God, because He give me this problem, this experience, this lesson. I feel like more mature right now. Remember! if God give u a problem, it means, He still love u.He remember and care of u.

Now, I think it's one of the best holiday that i ever had. it's amazing and precious holiday. I do many things that i never thought before.

Thanks to God.

It is new ME..!!!

Qoute : When God take something special from u, don't be sad.. Becauce He will give u something that u'll love most. Trust me!

My dad's qoute : Don't love too much, don't trust too much.

New Block... New Heart...

Today is the first day of last block in this semester....
Really happy, coz it's mean... I have studies as doctor for a year!!! (finally..... )

Blok terakhir ini adalah Fundamental Medical Science IV, yang berisikan bakteri, fungi, parasit, dan teman sepermainan lain nya...

Sungguh menyedihkan harus bertemu mereka lagi... Ini adalah pelajaran biologi yang sangat amat saya benciiiii... Sejak SMA, pelajaran ini bener2 udah bikin trauma di kepalaaa... Alhasil, sekarang agak berat nerima nya... Mind set nya uda bilang :BURUK..!! SUSAH...!!

Tapi... setelah mengalami keterpurukan di ujian blok sebelum nya... Akhirnya,, saya memutuskan untuk mencoba mencintai bidang ini.. Mencoba mendengan setiap lecture.. Mencoba tidak datang terlambat apalagi bolos.. Mencoba mencatat dan tidak ngantuk.. Pokoknya mencoba menganggap kalau materi ini menyenangkan..

Dan hari ini... BERHASIL...!! I really really productive!! seharian ini kerjanya dengerin lecture dengan semangat dan mencoba mencintai nya... Yaaa... so far ga seburuk SMA...

Yeee..!!! First day nya uda berhasil nih.. semoga sampai 5 minggu ke depan, tetap berhasil.....

TRY... TRY... TRY...!! Change mind set and LOVE.. LOVE..LOVE...=)

I am back.. - Miss my high school life -

it's a long long long time since my last post...

entah apa yang tiba-tiba membuat saya mencoba menulis blog lagi....

it's just about univ life...

sooo many people said :: " High school life is the best part of the life "..

dulu nya ( pas masih SMA ), saya kurang setuju ttg hal itu.. apa enak nya sih SMA?? biasa aja.. pusing.. pengen cepet-cepet lulus aja..!!

but now..

Saya sudah menjadi seorang mahasiswa.

saya benar-benar berubah pikiran.. saya SANGAT SETUJU pada pernyataan itu!!

yesss...!! High school life is the best..!!

but,, my sister said that is because of my major! yeah.. my major : Faculty of Medicine.

mungkin bener juga sih.. salah satu faktor nya adalah karena jurusan. di jurusan ini, sama sekali ga gampang bolos-bolos ato ngabur. Gimana bisa kabur kalo 1 kelas isi nya 10 orang (PBL).

Kalau pengen ijin,, perlu memberikan surat setidaknya 3 hari sebelum nya kepada ::

1. PA ( Academic Advisor ) ---> harus dipertimbangkan / tunggu ACC

2. Dr. Anilla

3. Tutor PBL

4. Tutor CS

Cuma bolos sehari harus bikin copian surat ijin beserta bukti2 nya 4 salinan!!

Kayaknya pas SMA mah kalo mo bolos tinggal kasih surat ijin aja... apapun isinya,, pasti diterima...

Dan pas SMA tuh rasanya ga ada beban apa-apa. ulangan, ya ulangan aja... tugas,, ya tugas aja...

kynya tuh ga ada tanggung jawab nya.. jalalanin aja..

tapi pas kuliah?!! rasa nya tanggung jawab nya superrrrr berat.... dan jujur saja,., saya belum bisa beradaptasi..

Masa-masa SMA bener unforgetable and unrepeatable...

Jadi,, bener kata orang.. kalo masa-masa SMA dinikmati aja.. Maen-maen dan bersenang-senang aja.. Kuliah ( esp. Kedokteran ) ga akan bisa sehura-hura dulu...

I really miss that time....... my high school life...

dan yang sekarang bisa saya lakukan adalah :: mensyukuri dan menikmati masa-masa jadi anak kuliahan.... Karena saya yakin, masa-masa kerja akan jauh lebih berat lagi....